i've had to remind myself of this several times this week, as I brooded on the latest point of life I was in. I recently entered what has been feeling like a 'lull' stage in my life—such that if the details were a song, this would be the point where it's not necessarily on repeat, but the lyrics seem to have stopped for a while, and all that can be heard are the soft tunes in the background.
In simple terms, I feel like a car moving on a straight road, no speed bumps, no notable events, just going. And I'm not used to it. It's like the point in constructing a house, where the foundation has been laid, the sand and other notable things brought, and all the workers are doing is mould tons and tons of bricks. That sort of uneventful stuff.
And because of this lull, I've been tempted so many times, to almost feel like I'm all alone—all on my own doing the not-so-important stuff; almost like God only shows up during the interesting parts of my life. You know, when I'm really in need of serious help.
But that's not true. I know it's not, and I'm very sure of it. So, even when my thoughts want to jump around in hyperactive worry, and make me feel like, "New instructions aren't coming in, so maybe Dad went on a vacay since nothing interesting is going on", I remind myself of two things:
The first, His promise to all who believe in Him, that He'll always be with them. And the second, of the fact that he's my ever present help (Matthew 28:28; Psalm46:1). He's not going anywhere without me. Ever.
Because of this, I rest assured. It doesn't matter whether it's just bricks being moulded right now, or it's the boring period where the seeds have been planted, and they haven't started germinating yet, I'm sure that He's still here, watching me—never sleeping, never blinking—through it all. The seed might be in the ground, out of sight and out of reach, but He still sees it, and he's sending rain to water it unfailingly, and nutrients to support it daily (Zechariah 10:1).
That's the kind of God and Father I have, the kind of Father Christians have, and the kind of Father who's accessible to as many that choose to believe in His son Jesus. The type who keeps working on us and for us, even when we can't see it.
I see him in the wilderness and in green fields. Thank you sis.